chisp

Hello LP, I made a second account as I want to remain anonymous on this, but I frequent LP a decent amount.

I'm a fairly nerdy guy, and I don't have many friends, but the ones I do I spend a good portion of time with. Over the years, many of them have moved away to various colleges

My friend, after getting in a bad car accident over the weekend, died today of his injuries. I have been doing my best since the crash to tell myself he is going to be good as new, but now I have literally become emotionally frozen. I have no idea what to do...

I am extremely depressed atm. He was the guy I have been hanging out with, drinking with, playing poker with, etc for about the past year, and I don't really have any other friends left. I'm thinking about going to see a therapist or someone to talk to about it, but I don't think my health insurance will cover it and I don't have much money at the moment.

It is making me angry as I write to be even talking about this, because why should I be worried about how I feel right now? My friend is dead, and his parents are feeling likely just unspeakable pain. This makes me feel even worse, and very selfish. It is making me analyze everything that is negative about myself, and I feel more depressed than I have ever felt in my life.

Anyone have any advice on what I should do? Would really appreciate it right now. Thanks

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